Journal 7 – 2007 (by Franziska Cress)

Sex has become the most complicated human interaction ever seen on this unfortunate planet. I’m not kidding. I realized that today.

Anywhere I look… sex…. Sex sex sex sex…

getting off by clementine cannibal

my eyes close and pictures flutter through my head. memories, fantasies, pornography, i try to settle on a theme. always intensity. my mind focuses on something. jamal. the first time i ever got good head from a guy. (i was so skepitcal about head from guys, having never enjoyed it.) he flips me around, he wants my ass in his face, it drives him crazy. i put the condom on, ready to fuck him, not expecting what’s coming. he grabs my thighs and pulls my pussy down on his face, sucks my pussy into his mouth like a delicious fruit. devouring me. i’ve never had head from this position, from on top and i’m loving how i’m practically sitting on his face. and his cock is right in front of me. i go crazy. deepthroating him so i can’t breathe. tears stream down my face and i love it so much. it feels so good. choking on him, riding his face, my mind obliterated by the pleasure. so good. so fucking good. but that’s just a memory.

Slip Me a Roofie

(by Sara Stadler)

slip me a roofie*slip me a roofie*slip me a roofie

–slip it in stick it in

slip me a roofie*slip me a roofie*slip me a roofie

your slipping me a roofie-

a sticky slanted sin

–slip it in stick it in

I can never win*I can never win*I’m tearing you apart*in abortal sin*what is it*I can say?*what is it in the art-

-of commercial violence?

viagra’s a bitch*your makin me itch*I’m making you ache*and I’m tearing you apart*I’m tearing you apart

..and I forgot

I can never win*I can never win*commercial sin/communal living

caving within-eighteens a blast*how long will it last?

in dire need of the past

don’t question no questions*in subliminal terror*human in error*human in error

don’t question no questions*in subliminal terror*human in error*human in error

don’t question no questions*in subliminal terror

slip me a roofie*slip me a roofie*slip me a roofie

–slip it in stick in/slip it in stick it in slip me a roofie*slip me a roofie

-stick it in sin & dont forget to wash your hands

The fogotten children (by Sara Stadler)

I was just 16 years old when I walked through the doors of Vista Maria, a non-profit community-based program, with treatment designed for abused and neglected girls.  I was held captive there for a year; locked away from the outside world.  The only times I ever did see the outside world was when I either went to court or walked to school, or through the tall fence.  Often times when I did look through that fence the kids playing in their backyards would refer to us as “caged animals” and would say other cruel remarks.

SHERE HITE

Shere Hite, born in 1942, feminist and sex scientist, is famous for her so called „Hite Reports“. In the seventies she dared to do research on female sexuality from a feminist stance and guess what? The results were not the ones conservative seventies world expected. She found out that women masturbate more often than what had been thought back then, that they have more sex outside marriage than had been suspected. This and other conclusions that didn’t go well with the moral ideals set free a storm of criticism – of course!

An outcry from Europe to the Bible Belt resulted from the things that were obviously true but that a lot of people didn’t want to read.

Combining pussy & brains?!?

(by Elena)

Sexuality has always been a difficult subject for me, from the very start.

As a little girl, I used to be the typical tomboy: playing soccer with the guys, earning respect for being more courageous than the other girls, having a lot of fun doing stuff outside the house.

INTERVIEW WITH LAURA MÉRITT

I gladly present an interview with Laura Méritt, a well known person to the Berlin Sex Scene: sex worker, operator of „sexclusivitaeten“, sex-counselor, mediator and communication scientist. Make also sure to check out her homepage which is just as interesting as the person herself. Here’s Laura:

1. What is your motivation to explore the world of sex, female sexuality and lust in general? How did these issues become such an important focus in your life and work?

25 years ago I was – like many women – interested in exploring my body, sensuality, sexuality, gender affairs, relationships. As I got involved in feminist things and was studying communications, feminist linguistics; I did not only analyze verbal but also nonverbal communication. I came to the decision that I have to go to foreign countries and disciplines to study body politics because I did not find serious teachers nor sex academies for practical lessons in Germany. The Osho community was not for me: I did not want to follow a patriarch. So I joined the whores movement and learned how to deal with sexuality, transsexual performances, role playing and – very important – also learned communication about sex. Who could tell and teach me better then whores?

Fuck my fingers!

(by Peter Parker)

Until now fingers used to be seen only as means in sexual context than as fully fledged sexual organs. This fact is surprising since fingers (or hands) are usually an elementary part of sex, nevermind which kind of it.

Nevertheless sex is usually connected with the so called “primary sexual organs”, that are normally seperated into 2 categories: “female” and “male”.

With this division and classification, a standardization takes place. There are explicit ideas of how the “primary sexual organs” should be like and, too, who has to “have” which one: men the ones defined as “male” and women the ones defined as “female”.

The difficulties deriving from this standardisation are well known. On a closer look it becomes furthermore clear how senseless it is to accredit the hitherto “primary sexual organs” and to not let fingers take this place since they deserve this status to a greater extent (if this place has to be taken at all).

The fact that fingers are sexual organs, too, should be obvious now. Furthermore, fingers are way more flexible than any other part of the body; there is no questioning about wether they are “too big” or “too small” or “too tight” or “too wide” because they can change their size and arrange themselves according to particular preference. Additionally so many questions will be answered by themselves if you accept them as primary sexual organs: nobody would even think of asking wether lesbians will ever have “real sex” in their lifetimes; same with the question of defloration (whatever sense the answer to this question may have).

If and how one could determine the link to a certain sex or gender by the fingers’ texture might have to be examined but I think it would only lead to difficulties. In this spirit it is definitely time to give fingers the tribute that they have long deserved – it is no coincidence that they end in most cases next to the loins.

Tea-jay[at]gmx.de

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Wild and Untamed

Sex. The almost mythological figure. Our image of it gets shaped by porn, teen magazines, novels and opinions from our peers (or even parents) before we make sexual experiences ourselves.

This image is kinda weird, especially if we look at the female part of it. They follow a certain code that I mentioned earlier: the image that gets planted in our brains are images of neat, shaved and groomed girls willing to have sexual relationships in a reliant form.

Cause there are rules. Nevermind if we look at or think of the kinky bondage stripper or the cute girl on the illustrations of a sex column in a teen mag  or most artsy photos. If you ask me, they have all one thing in common: they are tamed. Their sexuality is tamed. Because they fit in certain norms like listed above.

It is hard to explain what I mean by „tamed“ specifically. But I will try with a few examples, perhaps it will get clearer (at least I hope so).

Maybe you have noticed the vintage nude photos from the very early 20th century that are spread across this zine. I like these pictures a lot, that’s why I decided to put them in here. What I like about them is not particulary the „exotic retro“ style. I like that the girls in them seem to be an active part of the photograph instead of a pure motive. They look like they have something to tell – more to tell than  the bedtime stories and cliché fantasies the eyes of a playboy model tell you. Not only do those vintage women have all sorts and shapes of bodies, also their presentation is various: they are shy, seductive, bored, curious… but they seem to have their very own idea of what their sexuality means to them. Much more inspiration than nowaday’s nude photos offer. These girls are not tamed, they don’t seem to only serve the common idea of „this is what men like so look this and that way when you pose“. Just for fun, look at some playboy shots and ask yourself what the women there might have to tell you and wether it is nearly as interesting as the girls I was talking about. Do they display their very own sexuality? Or are they just a canvas for the (male) photographer’s wishes? Does he use his model for the picture or does he honour her by taking it? Or simply: what does the picture tell us? What is the pic supposed to tell us?

You are a sexual being

Yes you are. You have always been. Just like that.

Girls are known to masturbate even while they are still inside their mothers’ wombs (and boys happen to get boners there, too). As weird as this may sound – you are a sexual being from the start, even before your mom gave birth. You are a human being and therefore a sexual being. Have always been. Hah!